Why can’t I ever get a boyfriend? I know I can’t talk to guys, but I want a guy who can like me for and a guy that doesn’t want me to change for them. Why can’t relationships be like the ones I watch in drama movies or in television shows such as Gossip Girl. I believe life would be so much easier if it was like television. I very much don’t understand why guys don’t like girls like me. Is it because I am ugly, or dumb or what is it that guys don’t like me for me. Well you know what I am going to change that once I go back to school tomorrow. I am going to be a totally different person. I will change my wardrobe, and my lifestyle. I will try to be a more out going person, I don’t care what people think about what i am going to do but this is going to happen no matter what. If this is the way to get a guys attention then so be it. I will prove a point for all the girls like me by the end of the school year. It will be hard of course, but this is the only way to get a guys attention.



Well going back to college tomorrow. Can’t wait to move in to my apartment. I will be a junior in college, I really can’t believe I made it this far. Things are changing in my life and it is going to be great this school year. If my family thinks I am coming home right after finals, they are totally wrong. Now that I have my own apartment I think I will stay on campus on winter break, well just until the week or two before Christmas, then I will find my way back to school and stay there for the rest of my break. The reason I plan on staying on campus during winter break is because part of my family, the family on my mom’s side including my mom doesn’t believe I can become a special education teacher. Well so excited to move in tomorrow, to get away from these people.


Why do things have to be so complicated in my life? Life sucks that is for sure, especially when you do not have a license to get anywhere. I only say life sucks with out a license because it really does. With out a license you are stuck in the house all day, unless you ask your parents or grandparents to take you somewhere and then that is when you get questioned on where you are going or who you are hanging out with. I don’t know about you but I don’t want my family in my personal life. They don’t need to know where I go or whom I will be hanging out with. I know they just want to keep me safe, but they can’t protect me forever. I have to go out and be myself, well at least try to be myself. I wish I had my license because then I can drive to somewhere and meet someone there without having to stay at my dads for the entire week. Why does everything have to be so complicated? My life has always been complicated and I am just going to have to live with that.